back to, December.

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up, and I know why

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping

Staying up, playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

A letter for....
Someone who always remembered when it's rain, H-P-N. :)


I don't know what kind of feeling that I ever have to you, but i just knew that you've ever be a part of me, and i know that you ever meant somehow important for me. And this song, yeah, really indicate to you. I don't know how is it start, i just remember it's begin on your birthday, then they started like to joke about us. I don't know why, but they kept doing that. First, I felt so bother with that, because i just thought i'm coming here not for this kind of joke, but for learn English. But as times flow, i used to it, and I'm happy with that :) I remember how we used to talk many things either it by message or ym, till time showed at 3AM. I really like to loss my sleep time, cause i can talk with you then. Maybe, I got bored so many times too, but at least i had someone to talk with. You're obviously a kind and funny man. I've no idea is it the real you or what? Because, i just haven't known you well so far. So, too often I remind myself to not fall for you, Why? I'm just scared that you're likely a poker face. But, how we can controlled our heart that good, uhm? I still missing you when you ain't replay that fast. I think too much when you message me late. I really like when you company me waiting for my mom picked me up. I like about our conversation. I like about fact that we both love green. I like the way you called my name. So different i think haha.

Through this post, i wanna say much thanks to you for those shorty memories, though it has been colored my paper life, hasn't it? :) I'm so sorry if I often replay your message so late when I was bored. Sorry for not interest to what you talk about. Sorry for being so apathetic to you. I still have no idea, why you suddenly being someone i didn't know before. Like you replay what i did to you. You suddenly make distances between. And, now I know how it feels to be you at that time. I heard you've been with someone else now, and I'm really happy with that, really :D I was so glad, when you text me first on last Ramadhan's eve. With that i could truly forgive you, let everything about you, to really go. To not think about that things again. To not think that much "Why" question in my mind, that i never brave to ask to you. Because I believed there's a time that would make me figure it out later.

At least, it was nice to meet you, Mas. Hope there's a time that we could meet again :D I wish you the best for being a dentist, and soon i'll like you too! Ha ha ha :p Oh ya, last wish, tak doain, semoga bisa cepet ketemu jodohmu terus menikah, hahaha, as you wish lah pokoknya. Amin :)