Like that last saturday

I was reminding my self, all the time, over and over again, to not expecting on something too much. Because Once i pushed to down, it will take a bit more time so I can back standing straightly. I knew deep inside my brain, it always say "Rizka, not all thing will work the way we wanted to". And i really did realize it. Trust me. But, ah you know my stupid heart always try to say something different with brain. And i totally hate this way huuuf

I hate the part, when i feel like I was waiting for something, indeed. But then, i trying to sure myself what  actually I waited for, then in the end i just won't to admit it. And it just make such a complicated feeling to say. It bother me to death. It makes me worrying on something, and all again i still won't admit it. But it just keep trying to blow up inside my mind. Uh i hate that part for sure! You know, itulah dimana aku menjadi sangat galau dan merasa bodoh. Yeah, bodoh. Why there must be a kind of this feeling? Munak banget fiuh

So, intinya dari kata-kata yang bertele-tele diatas. Aku sangat nggak suka, kalo aku jadi menunggu sesuatu, ah ya sesuatu yang gitu itu. Dan ketika dalam hati aku tau, kalo aku bener-bener lagi nunggu, tapi hatiku juga yang ngomong dengan ngototnya juga, kalo aku nggak nunggu sesuatu itu. You know? Too complicated kan? Ah ya kayak gitu pokoknya. Huh, being a really munak person is one I avoid to sure! Jadi? kalo misalnya aku ngerasa gini lagi. So, Anyone knows what I suppose to do actually? I've made a pinky-promise to my self to not being like this again and again. But I still being this. Oh, please, i surely need a help. :'[