Last Precious Day☹

 


"I don't wanna let you down.. I don't wanna lead you on.. I don't wanna hold you back.. from where you might belong.. You would never ask me why My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore.. I would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry.. There's nothing left to say.. But.. Goodbye.."

Assalamualaikum. Hi!

Have all of you got blast days? Hhm, i pray for you :)

Well. I want to share with you about my-oh i mean-our mading (magazine wall huahaha), yay!

Which i gotta tell you first?? Hiks.

Then, well, actually you guess what! It has finally done hehe, unpredictable (hyper) :p I just feel like, random,when I got it. Quite happy, sad, lost, alloy, but i point i really will miss this moment :') Ok, last day we took up our magwal (Lol).. Me, Ngex, Nay, got home early than the others (hash! Cause shity-Ning-ups). We went to my home. and arrived at a quarter to twelve. At there, we did some finishing.. Ngex Sr took a rest. Me and Nay Sr, Relaxed and looked for some article. And Wow! We found many interested article :3 Haahahah thank you so much Uncle Google :p.

Half later.

We just realized we haven't got the way to take to PTC. Hrrr. It was completely damn and confusing--" And I got idea. (Eh gaenaaaaak pake bind aja ya!) - skip.

Yasudah aku dan mbak Ngengex buru2 bersiap-siap ke ITS, dan meninggalkan Mbak Nay sendirian dengan temuan artikel kami. haha maaf mbak. It was urgent, right? Ok, kita kesana naik vario pink nya Mbak Ngex (gaya jadi feminim :p) Dan.. Setelah hampir sampai di Sidosermo Indah, aku baru nyadar Oh good, aku ga mbawa dompet bahkan sepeser uang pun hiks. Aku pikir ah yasudalah, toh, semoga saja mbak Ngex membawa uang.. Miawwww. Setelah sampai di Sidosermo Indah, aku pikir lagi, lhohyaaa mbak Ngex ga bawa tas juga lo pek. Hhhm, firasat buruk mulai bergentayangan, akhirnya setelah di stopan selepas Sidosermo Indah, aku curhat ke Mbak Ngex. 

"Mbak aku ga mbawa duit blas pek"

"Kebacut! Lhoooyoo jancik! Aku yo ga nggowo STNK, SIM"

(Lampu ijo)

"Lhehhh.. Lhoo trus ya apa? Lha nanti masuk ITS kan pake STNK"

"Sek sek sms mas Ahong"

"(meso meso ngguyu ngguyu)"

"Yo ngene iki..ga sholat sek se"

"Yo gak ngono!"

..Ngakak bareng 

Oke, dan akhirnya, mas Ahong menyuruh kita ke kos2an nya mas Dapit dulu. Ya dengan menukar sepeda untuk sementara. Berangket deh ke rumah pekdheku. Terus, yaudah, balik lagi ke rumahku heheh. Masalah pertama terselesaikan. Dan apa yang lebih bodoh lagi? Kita lo berangkat jam 3 rek. Sama aja boong la'an tadi pulang awal. ahhhh nguk nguk. :O Hahaha.

On the way..

Mas David duduk di sampingnya mas Ahong. Aku, Mbak Nay, Mbak Ngex duduk di tengah. Dan.. Mas Tian dengan begitu setianya duduk di bangku belakang berduaan dengan kekasih tercintanya, tak lain dan tak bukan, sang Mading yang sangat legendaris.

Oke, sepanjang perjalanan rasanya beneran seru he. Udah mas David ngomong rengginang aja pake kemenyek jadi trengginang, haha trus aku sama mbak Ngex ngotot trengginang itu lak nama hewan se, dan akhirnya ternyata yang bener trenggiling dan trengginang yang bener itu rengginang ga peke T. haha. tapi mas David ngomongnya tetep ae Trengginang, njaok tolong.

Terus ada lagi niiiih.

Haha kan jalan macet to, habis ada kereta, lhah pas palangnya udah naik, motor2 udah pada berjubel, tapi tetep aja macet, lha trus kan ada mbak2 to naik motor, eh ngelirik ke mas ahong kon, haha trus tak sebarin ke seisi mobil, eh lgsg ngguyu heboh, dan ternyata ada bapak2 pun gamau kalah ngelirik mas ahong. Akhirnya kita nobatkan mas Ahong sebagai sopir idola abad ini--" Plok plok.

Mana mas Tian itu di mobil ngomong2 nya dolly dolly terus, Astagfirullah, aku kan masih ciliiiiiik x_x hahah. hhh, terus kita kan lewat kodam gitu ya, terus ada gapura besar yang kalo masuk situ mungkin nyampek ke tempat latihannya TNI gitu (mentus ga ketulungan) mas Tian nyeletuk "Hong, masuk situ suruh push up kamu" tak sautin "Lheh mas Ahong lak mu-suh" "oh iyo Hong, di tembak kamu" Mbak Ngex juga, haha yowes ngono. trus aku ngomong "serbuuuuuuuu" satunya "tiaraaaaaaaaap" haha. "Nggak nyampek PTC gatau lho ini ya" Ok deh saya diam bos.

Haha ya gitu, terus banyak wes guyon, guyon.

Terus mas David itu juga ngomong "Waterboom langsung aja Hong" aku "lho jangan nanti mas ahong ilang susah nyarinya kan banyak sodaranya sampingnya situ" hahaha. "Nggak nyampek PTC gatau lho ya ini" Ok saya diam lagi bos :| Terus Mas Tian itu ya pamer "Aku ini raja jalanan" eh tibakno pas Mas Ahong nya nglewatin jalan lain dia nggak tau hahaha. -_-

Akhirnya nyempek dehh di PTC, dan mas Ahong salah masuk parkiran huks huks. Jadi kita nggak bisa langsung nyampek depan sscc nya, tapi gapaapalah toh yang nggendong madingnya ya mas Tian huahaha :)) Sakno sudah puasa di siksa pula. Oyaya.. omong2 puasa aku awalnya puasa lo, tapi jam sepuluhan akhirnya aku mokel hiks godaan oh godaan.. :|

Nyampek atas ternyata belum buka, yaudah daripada nunggu di loading door, kita makan.. toh madingnya juga ga gede, sambil ngrapi2in dikit (oya ini yang dari sekolah udah ngumpul bareng, jadi ada mbak rara, devi, karina, mbak dita, sama mas Bayu juga) Sambil makan aku memprovokatori untuk mengiming-imingi mas Tian huahahah aku memang setan yuhuuuuu >:)) Ya gitu lah, terus aku Mbak Rara devi karina, sholat. - skip

Akhirnya pengumpulan sudah di buka. Gitu deh. Ngumpul sama anak2 mbak2 mas2 2D juga, ketemu unyil olive chiki sasa ayu yuan cana banyak wes saudara2 nya mas ahong juga bnyaaak huakakak. Pas mau dikumpulin kita doa bareng. Ohoooy. ^^ Pulang deh. Dan cerita masih banyak tapi apa daya badanku sudah bau gawenak gini, nanti kalian kena bauku waduhhh bisa gawat :P

(masih finishing)

(sopir idola wkwkwk)

(sabarrr Mbak Nay sabaar)

(ya gini ini kerjaannya mbak Rara :P)

Hmm, the essentially is we win or not isn't the recent affairs. I'm so glad, happy, proud, affected to can be with and know you all.. You all give me many new lesson to learn.. You all teach me how to be independent.. You all really draw a good line in my sheets :P Begin with an absurd relation we become a great and kind to each other :) We share, cry, worried, fight, struggle, create, make, joking, loving, wagging, gossiping ,hate then peace again, and many things together.. Maybe I'm too much say but it's the truth. :) Though, i gotta miss you all.. I really feeling loss you all last night, but it's better when we talked together hours later, we share our truth feeling, and guess what they said the same way and things with me.. Hiks.. :')

                                                                                  rizka  

Dedicated for: Mbak: Nay, Ngex, Rara, Dita. Devi, Karina, Ela. 

Mas: Bayu, Zindhu, Ahong, Dapit&the gank. So on. :)

Grow Up

Hi I wanna share a little thing..

But I don't know where i must begin the topic.

Well.

How about growing up?

Everyone's going up. And many things and changes were happening when we grew up. And as the time keep through company our growing's moment sometimes we don't aware if ourselves change into two direction that really different between one another. It can be better and worse.

Someone said growing up is when we got bigger, and another one said growing up is when we could be someone that more mature than the last, so how about you? Which opinion that more right for you? I think both of them are the right statement, cause.. We are not growing up if our body still like a 3-months-baby. Maybe some of us happen that tragedy, I wish no more.  And we're not growing up too if our behavior still like a kindergarten child. Hahaha.

And, who knows how long we will be life in this earth. Maybe we can laugh in the morning and we just used to do that in the evening. Cause life is secret just make it flow like the water in the river and make it shine as bright as sun can does it everyday and how it's useful to other people :) Like Ralph Waldo Emerson said It is not length of life, but depth of life. Shit i'm lost my main topic. Hahaha. Sorry reader :P

Haha okey, I think it's enough ;-) So let's full our growing up period with an useful thing and let's refresh our mind and back to the best. Let's learn how to against all the matters in our life with a mature and wise think. I'm 15years. And I must learn how to have a big responsible of all my promise and else. Cause i'm not a girl anymore Now, I'm a young lady with thousand stories and billion wrongs. And, It's a little matter to do wrongs in fifteen years. ;-)

With a huge respect, Rizka :)

About : Veil

Assalamualaikum. Good morning to all of you. Hope your day is well.

Hmm, well, today i'll give some my comment, my view about veiled/hooded (berkerudung)

First of all, Just for information Islam said that actually women in whole of world must use veil to cover up her hair. But nowadays.. I think of that statement has miss understood by many people. Emm, yeah i know i fault too cause i didn't wear a veil. Bur i think it's (little) better than the people who used veil but they didn't consistent to use it all the time. You guys are know what i mean?

Let's see. Now many girls use veil in their school, but they didn't use it when they outside school, maybe like when they went to mall, play with their friends, attend training, etc. Maybe, that's not a big problem, but that just one thing that make disappointed, and a view of Islam by other people is worse and worse.

Even now, i almost always see in Veiled girls's photos profile on facebook saved or there were photos of her that used veil, and didn't use it.. Rawrrrrr, even, their clothes was too much opened and looked like impolite one.. They used pants. They tank top. Oh please..whereas photos if they used veil!!!!!!! Argh..

Sometimes i feel so "gemes" to they who did like that.. How come?

If they were me, i choose, i will haven't used  veil first, until someday when i had feel sure, ready, and many things that support me to use veil. I'll used them. Cause when we wore it but we haven't ready yet, that's just too meaningless.. So let's assure your heart, mind, and of course your self first before you decide to use veil on your daily life not for your school day. Of course if you have used it since you child or wonted it from the beginning maybe it wasn't a big problem anymore. Cause use veil means we have ready to do all Islam's rules and duties. We ready to do all the attitude of being great Muslim, and much more, We ready to spread the beautiful of Islam. Bigness of Islam. and much means of Islam that other people don't know. :)

Well, just that what i'm wanna share with you no offense or main purpose on these post. Thanks for your come, - Rizka

Dealova

karra,
maaf karena selalu membuat kamu marah
maaf karena selalu membuat kamu benci sama aku
maaf atas semua kepedihan yg aku timbulkan
maaf karena selalu membuat kamu mengalah dalam segala hal...
maaf karena aku selalu keras kepala
maaf karena telah membuat kamu masuk ke dalam kehidupanku
maaf karena aku harus pergi ninggalin kamu ..

terimakasih karena kamu telah membuat hari-hariku indah
terimakasih karena kamu telah memperlihatkan mata yang paling indah yang pernah kulihat
terimakasih karena kamu telah membuat aku memiliki semangat hidup
terimakasih karena kamu selalu menganggap aku pintar
terimakasih karena kamu membuatku sadar bahwa kita harus berjuang untuk hidup dan bahwa hidup ini harus diarungi melalui semangat, perjuangan, dan kemauan keras
terimakasih karena kamu memberikan kebahagiaan terbesar dalam hidupku
terimakasih karena kamu telah luar biasa menghadapi aku
karena telah mengajari aku untuk mendoakan agar org yang aku cintai bahagia
karena telah mengubah hidupku yg kosong
karena telah menjadi satu-satunya orang yang bisa membuatku mengalah
karena telah memberikan sesuatu yg selama ini nggak bisa aku kasih ke kamu
karena telah menjadi wanita yg luar biasa dan nggak tertandingi yg pernah masuk dalam kehidupanku

terimakasih ... karena kamu menjadi bidadariku selama ini
aku nggak akan ke mana-mana ...

Lost

Do you know what lost is mean? Surely, you never really know it until you feel it alone. And through it by yourself.

My journey with beloved Dad♥

Heey, yesterday i followed my father to solve his work at Madura (you know kan he?) I went with my father (of course) and my driver, I went there at 7 a.m that was so early right? Haha, so bizzare! Lol! How could I get up at 7 a.m after suhoor? That just so impossible haha. Well, i'll admit to you how could i get that early..? Umm, actually after suhoor i've slept.. but 'cause a "tragedy"-embarrassing tragedy for sure haha, i suddenly woke and blah and blah. :p Guess what!? I made puddle on my bed :p ssssssst don't tell anyone. -_- I'm a messy girl, right? uuhuhu.

You know what.. The journey's times became longer than usual 'cause the traffic jams. Hu Thumbs down! haha. But it was okey, no big problems. ;) When i was on the car yeeeea, i was boring hiks. The signal was so bad ever too, so i had nothing to do here, except listening to the music errr pretty bored, right? But... Haha Blaaa! I found my camera haha :3 So I took some of photos by my self. And i'm sorry if it were pretty "unclear" -_- Wkwkw. Happy watching guys!! :D

I like this one, huahaha :P

Lalala, lalala, :D

Scenery, Someday i'll make one bridge more fantastic than that :p

Ups.!!!!!!!! hhahahaha :">

Please deeeh -____-

Then, after did many things and through the long journey. Time for break fasting came! Yahoooo! :D My dad commanded our driver to go to "Bebek Sinjay" restaurant hohoho. Would you envy with me? :P Before that, my dad bought me chunky bar and ultra milk too hahaha nyem nyem :p~~ You should be envy (wakakakak) Hoo, i also didn't forget to send a message for someone huahaha -___-". Err, the Restaurant was really crowded. fuu we needed to wait a moment for the sit hiks T,T hahaaha.

Taraaaaa!! Here they came nyu nyu, The "Sego bebek" :D :3 Upsssssss.. Don't drooling here OKAY!!!! Keep it in hahaha. Let's see together ~~~~ :P

Like usual i don't like the "sambal" so i gave it to my dad. And continued to solve this "riddle" hahaha. you know what it was so tasteful. But anway, i think the meat was less extensive than my usual ration wkwkw so bad :P (i'm a greedily one HOHOHOHOHO >:)) evil laugh.

Well, i think it's enough. Thanks for your attention all. keep visiting my blog yayayaya??? :p

Rawr! -_-

Hoy! Waduuuh baru aja seneng sekarang perasaan campur aduk zzzz -_- Untung aja pek ada Fe sama Hafidz jaaaadii.. ya lumayan ternetralisir sih. He kalian tau gak seh tadi lo masnya ngomong opo pek ke aku -_- Zzzz Perasaanku lo langsung kretek-kretek huahaha bayangno pek yaopo prasaanku wkwkw mentolo nyanyi cinta 2 hati cak wkwkwkw =)) Ah bodo amat. Hiks. Nyesek :')

Ultah Bapak

Daddy’s day

Hulaaaaaa, Ayah ku ultah lhooo ;;) 14 Agustus. Kalian ga mau ngucapin tah ;;) Nanti yang ngucapin tak cium lho gantinya hehehe enak kan ting ting ting. Seksek, selamat hari Pramuka juga yaaa. Ayo dilestarikan Pramuka Indonesia. Haha. (Gaya yok--) Hmmm awalnnya tak kira wah bakal ngerayain tanpa ayah nih, soalnya dia pergi gitu lhoo. Eh ternyata engga. Ayahku pulang ternyata hehehe. Aseeeeek :D Kalian tau ngga seh, kan pa tengah malem gitu ya, eh tiba-tiba hapeku bergetar hebat. Wow. Ayah mama udah berabe dewe gitu, di pikir “He sapa see tengah malem gini telepon.”

“Jaileh ternyata itu lho dari anuku, kalenderku. Birthday reminder gitu. Huaaa terus aku baca. Apa sih woy, aku nyampe kuaget, ting ting ting pas udah baca, wah udah 00:00 ternyata. Aku langsung menuju ke ayahku, yang udah mulai terlelap, terus tak bisikin dari belakang, Selamat Ulang Tahun ayaaaaah. Hiks hiks terharu pek aku hohoho :”> Aku yang ngucapin pertama lho, so sweet kan, baik kan aku hahaha :D berhubung puasa baru bisa ngerayainnya pas malem. Yaudah deh terus ya gitu makan-makan hehehe, sorry ya ngga tak belikan buat kalian. Kalian ngga mau ngucapin sih. Kikikik. Eh tapi pas habis udah makan-makan, ayahku mesti pergi lagi huaaaa. Ngga capek apa ya? Tak doakan selamat nyampek tujuan. Amin. Selamat berpuasa ya semuanya yang ngejalanin.

Rizka

Hai Fasting Month ;-)

“Yay!!!!!!”

Selamat datang bulan Ramadhan.. Belum sih ya, 2 hari lagi pek tapi. Eh sungguh ya aku tadi sangat terharu sekali waktu sekolah ngasi halo-halo pengumuman mau libur awal puasa, ya Allah, ak terenyuh banget pek.. ;) Ga nyangka lhoo, bulan Ramadhan tahun ini datangnya cepat sekali. Ya Allah syukur Alhamdulillah aku masih diberi kesempatan... ;) Ahhhhhh, beneran aku tadi terharu sekali ;) Tadi waktu doa aku langsung mbayangin suasana Ramadhan ;) Buka puasa bareng-bareng sama keluarga besar, hiiihhhh terus mudik, salam-salaman, tarawih, sahur, ya Allah semoga bisa lancar dan terus sampai akhir, Amin... Welcome back Ramadhan month, happy fasting all, yaaah i hope Ramadhan this year will be walk with peacefully and calm... Yaaaah, of course it must be better than before. Forgive me if i had mistakes to you!!! Rizka.

Late Chat

“My Late Chat”

Morning donkeys. :) Well, last night i wanted to post some chat. my late chat actually with some my ex senior school mates in junior high school, but i was so sleepy... Bad, two of them haven't online yet, so i can't view our last chat. hahaha, and last night i didn't save it, just one already, so, next time i'll add it ;)

This one was With mayat ;) Hahahahahahahahahahha haduh mas iki lo wapikan pek ;p hehehe.

rizkapuspita69: Mayaaat

mhirzah: Hai may

mhirzah: hobi bgt se gentayangan

rizkapuspita69: haduh gmana kabarnya?hehehehe

rizkapuspita69: eh fotonya keren T,T choir bukan?

mhirzah: hha, agak sakit

mhirzah: iya, hahaha

rizkapuspita69: lheh knapa???

rizkapuspita69: Ooooooooooooo

rizkapuspita69: haha

rizkapuspita69: Km yg mana itu yaat? paling atas paling pojok bkn? *nggetu

mhirzah: gra2 hbs lomba padus kmren

mhirzah: iya, :D

rizkapuspita69: Waaa km nyanyie model apa yat?haha

rizkapuspita69: menang ta nggak he?

mhirzah: alhamdulillah, menang

mhirzah: entahlah, nuyul

rizkapuspita69: Ihiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii sing ngajaro sopo sek rek

rizkapuspita69: ngajari -_-

rizkapuspita69: Wih nuyul -_-

rizkapuspita69: Agak sakit kok gak tidur yat?

mhirzah: lha, sp emg?

mhirzah: bosen tdr. tmbah loro kabeh

rizkapuspita69: aku dong ah gimana se pake ngetes seee segaga la :O

mhirzah: ~x(

rizkapuspita69: Hoo hari ini jumat legi gboleh gentayangan lo yat

mhirzah: edan

mhirzah: malem sabtu, bsk libur

rizkapuspita69: Hahaha ---"

mhirzah: 5 menit lg jg uda sabtu

rizkapuspita69: lho iya ta???bknnya baru jam sepuluh?

rizkapuspita69: eh iyo se 23:54 Astaghfirullah

mhirzah: iya 10.115

rizkapuspita69: Ckckckkckckckckckck

mhirzah: eh may, km skolah mana?

rizkapuspita69: eh masuk ipa apa ips yat?ihiiiiii

rizkapuspita69: Smada hohohohohoohohohohohohohohohohohohohohoohohohoho

mhirzah: IPA

mhirzah: hoala, kok ga Smala?

rizkapuspita69: pas main botol2an botolnya berenti ke arah Smada, hahaha

mhirzah: hh, apaa ituu

mhirzah: ga ikt choirnya jjg?

mhirzah: :p

rizkapuspita69: Mayat uzur itu apa ya?hehe

mhirzah: tua

rizkapuspita69: Aku gabisa nyanyi -_- nanti aku dapet sprano gmana -_-

mhirzah: la ya enak

mhirzah: km kira ak bisa nyanyi

mhirzah: ngantongin tape ak itu :D

rizkapuspita69: He nanti kalo pas dapet tempatnya deket miknya waduuwhhh -_- haha

rizkapuspita69: Dubbing kaya keong racun ta Yat :p

mhirzah: wkwkwkw, yaya

mhirzah: eh may, tdr dulu, dimarain

mhirzah: wassalam

Dan lainnya adalah dari Gandoel (Reno) (gak sopan gak atek mas. Hassh babah :p gabiasa katek mas kok heheheh :P) Dan disitu aku dibilang "Geje" Waw mesti pek wes ngomong susah-susah, mesti lak dijawab onok "Geje"ne padahal yo nggak geje he prosoku wkakakak. Ya dan taukah kalian??! Aku curhat lhowww ama si Gandoels tentang mas Anu ihi ihi (pipi memerah toweng toweng :p) He padahal lho ya, biasanya aku gamau gitu pek kalo cerita ke Gandoelss dia itucomber sih (Udah combe ember lagi--" Apa bedanya? :P) He peace ya Ndoel :P. Terusnya habis gitu ehehe, kan Gandoel ngantuk tuh yaww eh yaudah dia bobok, eh tapi udah tak halang2in lhoww soalnya aku belum selesai curhatnya HUAHHHHH!!!!!!!!! (gak nyante) He yaudah tak bilang dada, terus tak bilang juga gak boleh mimpi'in mas anu. Eh dia bilang "Buakss" padahal asline pengen mimpi'in mas anu hahahaha :P Ah yaudah males akyuu sama Ndoelszz :P

Teteteretetttt... :)

Yang terakhir adalah sama mbak Anu! Yayy!! Eh mbak Eno ndeng --"

Wihiiiiiiiiiiii he kalian tau nggak sehh, mbak Eno lo mengagumi seseorang kon...Dan... Dia lo malah nyuruh aku yang ngeadd ymnya, katanya dia takut.. Hahaha gocik pek (koyok kon gak ae Riz, Riz.. :P) He tapi kalian tau nggak se, kalo mbak Eno cerita ke aku, orangnya menggirkan gitu deh kayaknya :p Yaudah akhirnya aku mau dehh ngeadd ymnya :p Mau tak godain (iyo nek anaknya gelem Riz, Riz) hahaahaha. :D Yo wessyhh gitu dehh lita cerita banyak, ihi ihi. Aku bilang kangen mbak Eno, terud dia sebenernya juga iya pekkkkk, tapi Mbaknya gamau ngaku!!!!! Hi speechless masti kalo lagi ngomong sama aku mbuakakaka -_- Ya pokoknya kita cerita banyak dehhh ;;) Hehehe. eh tapi kan besok (Hari ini) Mbak Eno ke Lawang kan, yaudah terus mbak Eno nya ngantukkk hiks. Off deh dia, bobok.

Yaelah, semuanya ninggal aku tidurr haha, gak Adli ah semuanya tidur wuhuhuhu T,T aku kan butuh tati tayang bwaaaaks hok hok nye nye nya nya nyunyu huks huks hix hix. (nangis penuh penghayatan)

Hi, i miss my junior high school life :) But, i know life goes on. And if we stuck on somewhere that it isn't hope for you too, your sacrifice won't mean nothing. As time walk on it'll be many things that will change, even you avoid it, even you say you won't change, even you sure that you still same with before.. That means you just not understand what things're going on your self... Right? Yaaa, i just want to say.. thanks all who still care and open with me, i really respect with you guys :) I proud to know people like you was... I was so lucky to ever know ya... And i want to say sorry if there ever miles that apart us... I'm so sorry... Maybe I haven't things to can contact ya.. :) Even i didn't replay your message or didn't say hi to ya, sorry, So far, i never meant to do that... I miss ya so much.. :)

:}

However, i like this bellow words. I clicked and copied it from amandabellissima's tumblr Thanks and sorry for copied it without permition first. !!


when a girl is quiet, millions things are runing in her mind
when a girl is not arguing, she’s thinking deeply
when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she’s wondering how long you will be around
when a girl answers “im fine” after a few seconds,she’s not at all fine
when a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you’re lying
when a girl lays on your chest, she’s wishing for you to be HERS forever
when a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking for your attention
when a girl text you everyday, she’s want you to reply at least once
when a girl say i love you, she means it
when a girl says thats, she can live without you, she has made up her mind that you’re the future
when a girl says i miss you, No ine in this world can miss you more than that

Why

Why? Kalo kita hidup di dunia nyata, kenapa kita masih harus berperan lagi di dalamnya? Kalo kita hidup dituntut untuk jujur untuk apa ada yang namanya kebohongan?

Dan kalo kita harus hidup dengan ada nya teman dan musuh, kanapa harus masih ada yang namanya muka dua? Kenapa kita tidak bisa hanya bisa menjadi satu diantara dua itu? Dan kalo kita tanya kepada diri kita sendiri, sebenarnya kenapa kita harus turun ke galaksi bima sakti ini, dan masih saja tidak ada yang bisa menjawabnya, lalu sebenarnya untuk apa?

Kenapa harus ada kebencian diantara cinta yang menjadi dasar dari setiap manusia untuk hidup berdampingan? Untuk apa ada kemarahan dari setiap kesabaran yang selalu kita usahakan dari setiap kekecewaan yang kita terima? Dan kenapa harus timbul masalah dari setiap pokok masalah?

Ya Tuhan, adakah yang mengetahuinya.? Aku ini kesepian. Diantara berjuta-juta manusia di hadapanku, kenapa tidak ada yang menyanyikan tiupan gembala yang mengusir dan membuang segala rasa kesepian ini? Kenapa aku masih merasa, kanapa tidak ada yang mengerti aku? Kenapa aku selalu di nomer duakan. Kenapa aku selalu dibedakan. Kenapa aku selalu tak dianggap? Kenapa harus ada besok, kalo hari ini sudah gagal? Kenapa harus ada kesempatan kedua dari satu putaran waktu yang tidak bisa di putar kembali?

Kenapa harus ada umpatan kasar yang menyertai di setiap amarah yang hanya ia lempar kepadaku. Apakah aku sebegitu tidak bisa berterima kasih? Pernahkah aku meminta banyak hal secara paksa kepadanya? Aku tidak tahu.

Dan, kalau besok aku tidak bisa melihatnya lagi, bisakah kau sampaikan padanya, sejuta maafku yang tak pernah kukatakan? Sejuta kekurangan yang aku sadari tidak akan pernah menjadi suatu benang lurus yang tidak akan patah walaupun panasnya korek api menyengat setiap bagian yang mempersatukannya. Dan kalau saja mereka tahu. Aku hanya butuh kasih sayang yang memberiku semangat dan motivasi. Bukan kata-kata yang membuatku merasa paling jelek untuk hanya mengetik tulisan seperti ini. Dan andai saja kalian tahu..

Setiap kata yang aku ucapkan hanyalah ungkapan rasa kesepianku yang nggak tahu harus dihilangkan dengan cara seperti apa. Dan mungkin hanya barisan huruf di keyboard inilah yang mengerti seberapa tidak adilnya rasa sayang kalian untukku, yang masih membutuhkan perhatian dan kompas untuk aku berjalan.

Dan kalaupun kalian tidak mau. Dan kalaupun kalian tidak akan mengurus aku lagi.

Ehm..

What do you think about your life? ;) What i'm gonna answer it, maybe like this. My life is maybe not as perfect as i'd dreamed at all. But, i made it perfect as how far i feel it perfect. And... My life is perfect even you said, "hah? You say that perfect?" hey my sight isn't same with you, and what i'm gonna tell you is.. My life is mine. And your life is yours. And.. Even you're pretending to me that your life is more perfect than mine, i doubt that i'll say yes then. You know?

Life live, is how you fill it with your comfortness to fall inside it... How you grow peace around you life equipment... And, How you can love each other purely without any reason, it's must be born naturaly... :-) Cause life live isn't about your self, but it means you and they. Life is can be selfish when it needed. But you must be spend more time to learn company with one another. Peace is life. And... Love is peace. ;]

My Real Friends

"Kemarin waktu aku lagi on the way. aku mikirin kalian, gak sadar hatiku ikutan jalan menyusuri memori di otakku.. Dan rasanya.. Hangat.. Banyak tawa kalian terekam dengan jelas di pikiranku.. Kalian yang selalu bilang ada aku cil, bilang gakpapa, bilang kangen, dan lain-lainnya.. Kalian, yang selalu nemenin aku di waktu aku sedih dan putus asa, kalian yang memberi aku semangat dan dorongan.. Kalian yang masih mau mendengarkan ocehanku yang gak penting sama sekali.. Kalian yang masih bisa tertawa walaupun aku gak ngelucu.. Kalian, ya kalian.. Akhirnya ada waktu dimana aku harus pisah sama kalian.. Dan, tanpa kusadari air mataku sudah jatuh. "Kak, kamu mikirin apa?" Semuanya kembali ke kenyataan. Hari dimana aku harus belajar menerima, kita nggak akan bertemu di gedung yang sama lagi, lima hari dari satu minggu. "Ahhhh" desahku dalam hati sambil merapatkan bibirku."

Assalamualikum...

Blogger, aku gak bisa tidur... Hua banyak pikiran tapi gaatau apa... Gak ngantuk sama sekali... Padahal dari kemarin kurang tidur... Nafsu makan agak berkurang... Sering online lah... huuuuhu.

Aku udah beener2 ikhlas ini gak masuk smala, toh smada juga gak kalah bagussss ;) Alhamdulillah makasi ya Allah... hehehhe

Tapi ada satu hal, yang masih sangat mengganjal, huuufff. Aku ga satu sekolah sama beberapa sahabtku, bener-bener sahabtku lebih tepatnya... Hua DORRL :(( Kita pisah, kecuali bulek sama Oliv... Dan aku harap Ina bisa masuk smasa,amin, kan gedungnya gandeng sama Smada... Oh ayo lah!!! Aku mohon :(

Kenapa ya... Aku baru aja ini, bener-bener mikirin takut pisah sama kalian... Aku udah suayang pek sama kalian... Gak bohong deh... Risna Dwi Kartika, Rachel Olivia Jovita, Lavonia Berlina Adzalika, Dinda Putri Nurhaqiqy, Lucita Spica, Gusti Ayu Putu Wyndi, Nurrochman Puspitasari Ahhh semuanya deh, gak bohong aku sayang banget sama kaliaan :( Kenapa harus pisah, aku gak mau... Ya Allah, semoga aku bisa nemuin temen kayak kalian, sayang, semoga kita tetep bisa bareng-bareng... Semoga yang namanya Sahabat gak akan luntur walaupun dipisahin sama jarak, toh kita masih di kota yang sama, di Surabaya, tapi beneran rasanya akku mau pisah jauh sama kalian, ah, hiks...

Maafin aku ya, maafin Rizka, maafin Acil, ah akulah pokoknya, kalo ada salah-salah, yang aku sengaja atau enggak :( Makasih buat kesabaran dan pengertian kalian... Risna, Olive, Vinni... Makasih buat pengorbanan dan kesabaran... Maaf kalau mungkin aku pernah bikin kalian sakit hati dan aku nggak sadar akan semuanya, ggak nyadar salahku apa... Maaf ya... Maaf kalo aku pernah ingkar janji, sering ngobuss, sering minta di anterin ini itu, minta di ngertiin... Maaf kalo aku pernah ngelakuin sesuatu sama kalian dengan gak senang hati (gak ikhlas) Maaf kalo aku suka diem, majang muka songong, dan garing waktu sama kalian... Maaf kalo aku pernah pelit, pernah bohong, pernah usil, marah, jahat, pilih kasih diantara kalian... Maaf kalo aku sering ngrengek tentang Adek... Maaf kalo aku bukan temen yang baik.. Maaf... Hadu banyak banget salahku ya, tapi aku minta plisssss kalian jangan lupa sama aku, tetep anggep akuu temen kalian, waluapun nanti kalian nemuin temen baru atau temen lama lagi yang lebih baik daripada aku, plissss jangan :(

Aku maunya kita tetep satu ya, walaupun nanti kita harus beda sekolah.. Aku maunya kamu tetep Risna, Dinda, Olive, Vinni, Luccy, Unyil, dll yang dulu, yang kaya di SMP, yang bisa ngehibur aku, walapun kadang nyebelinnnn. Aku gamau kita bercerai berai :( Tolong jangan lepas kacamata 3 dimensi kalian, yang menjadikan aku teman dimata kalian... Aku sayang kalian...

Bukan karena kalian baik, kaya, loyal, famous, dan lain-lain, aku bukan orang kaya gituuuu. aku sayang kalian, karena memang kalian pantas di sayaang dan pantas di sebut teman, sahabat, hufff. Mungkin emang pernah ada perselisihan diantara kita, but, gimana skrg? Everything's back.... Yaa? Temaaaaaaaaanku hue. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I EVER TOLD YOU, I LOVE YOU WHATEVER YOU'RE. Walaupun, (perasaanku&kayaknya) banyak orang memandang kita sebelah mata (perkecualian, unyil sama luccy) Kalian tetep yang the best ;) Muaaah.

Lebay banget ya, Blogger?? Tapi beneran deh, aku pengen bilang ini face to face ke temen2 aku, terus aku meluk mereka hihhhhhhh kalo aja aku genduuuuttt kayak pesumo wes gak bakal tak lepasin ntar pelukanku, mereka tak peluk jadi satu semua!!! Hiii tapi mereka apa mau ya temenan sm aku, kalo aku kayak pesumo?? :( Ah mau paling!! Mereka kan ga pandang buluuu! :D Kapan2 ayuuuk ketemuan sama mereka ya?! Hhihii. Ahh semoga mereka . Mereka semua mbaca ya?? Eh jangan dibilangin dulu, ntar aku maluuu biar mereka mbuka dgn kesadaran sendiri aja huahauauuu :P

Haduh sumpah ya, berat hati harus pisah, nangis :(

Christiano Ronaldo

Hello! I have been watched a match between Portugal and Brazil, and guess what it was really HOT! Hehehehe. Finally they got break even result. And yeaaaaah, any way i don't know, if they bot get break even, which team will get away the exclusion? Huh? Oh ya! I was wondering where's Kaka when i saw the match? In the reality, Kaka got red's card, so he couldn't play on this match. That was so disappointing hhhh. Mainly, i want to comparing between Kaka and Ronaldo, hahaha. Which one is the most HOT GUY? Of course i choose Ronaldo, ting ting. I'm a huge fan of him anyway :-) He's quite cool huh, isn't he? Hehehehe. Although he was famous with his playboy trait ehmmm, i still adore him :P

Did you know? I was being his fan since i was on 5 grade! Whoa! I used to like save his photos that i got from the newspaper, errr i cut for sure, hihiihi, and i'm gluing this on my drawing book. And I'm enhancing the good articles on there too. But, i lost it now, i can't find it anywhere. hfff.

Anyone just like me? Hhehehe. Ahhhh, Why he so adorable? huhuhu, I wish i could meet him sometimes hahaha. Hey, hey did you know? I ever dreaming something 'bout him! Ah ya.. I illusive in a moment i can meet him somewhere, no matter how old is he, i will be very happy, hahaha, then "we" can be friend, just like an usual human, he isn't a famous footballer anymore, and i'm a worker in office. I think it'll be good "illustration". At least, ahhh, Ronaldo i think you're a cool man, great footballer, errrr you had a big responsibility of your job, and many else.. And yeaaaaah be shine all your life Ronaldo! Many people love and support you around this whole word. Bring your Portugal being the winner, i think that's good plan huh?